Dr apt update!! DAY 19
Jul 27, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6VRXD1RMtQ

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good morning happy Thursday
it is so early I don't know why I do
these doctor's appointments so early
it's a killer oh my car talking to me
anyways I just want to check in with
everybody and say good morning I am on
my way to my doctor's appointment so
when I get out I will talk to you guys
and fill you in on what he says how many
people can stand a hundred degree
weather because surely I'm not I am not
doing it
we had a run to Costco really quick
because I am craving watermelon and the
only watermelon I really like is from
Costco so all I was like okay well I'll
just run into Costco and grab a
watermelon and I was like okay yeah but
before that we had to go to Walmart and
while I was at the doctor's today I had
talked to him because sorry I'm trying
open up a back here um because I have a
really hard time getting my water in
like I just just plain water just after
a while it just makes me feel icky so I
was talking to him I was like you know
do you have any suggestions and he was
like well you know I mean have you tried
the water flavors and I was like well
you know I have in the past but you know
I thought that that wouldn't count as
water because I'm putting flavor in it
he's like no no no no no he's like it
still it still counts so I went ahead
and I had Ollie pick up just the Walmart
brand great value of these and I'm gonna
put this in my water there's zero
calories so there's nothing in it
it's just flavor so I picked up two of
those I'm gonna try them and see I've
done him before and I really liked it so
I don't see why I wouldn't like it again
and what I'm gonna do is fill up a
Kalen and put it the fridge and I'll add
the flavor to it and that way then all I
have to do is just keep filling my cup
and my goal is to get down a gallon of
water a day anyways so I'm gonna go
ahead and shoot for trying to get in a
gallon of water a day even if it's
putting in the flavors I don't care as
long as I'm getting in water because I
am really into straw I mean that is the
one thing I can honestly say I'm doing
it struggling with my water intake other
than that I think I've been doing pretty
good but hopefully this will help spike
it up a little bit so that I can start
getting some water in it
we'll see anyways yes it's 100 degrees
here and we are sitting in the car
waiting for daddy to come back from
Costco guys good evening hopefully you
have a wonderful day me I had a great
day other than just trying to stay cool
because it is still so warm here and
it's like you just as soon as you walk
out you just drench and sweat and it's
like and so you feel so gross if you
gotta take a shower and it's like um so
I went let's see I woke up
I'm so tired too I woke up at 6:00 and I
had to get ready for my doctor's
appointment and then I went to that
which I just I can't get over how good
of a doctor's appointment was he was
just so just so shocked do you know he
was like he's like oh my gosh I really
thought that you know you were gonna say
like 10 pounds he's like but 20 I mean
22 pounds is amazing like that is that's
amazing and I was like I know but it
felt good and so we you know we had some
talk about my depression pills and how
that's going and I you know I told him I
said I'm doing really good
with the pills that he has me on excuse
me he hasn't won a great dose and it's
been I'd say about a year that he's had
me on this dose of meds and I've not had
to do any like switching or fluctuate
nothing like that and it has been the
one it's been like the best medicine for
me and it's lexapro and so that one yeah
I've been on it for a year now and I
don't think there has been many times
different situations that I have faced
in the last year that I don't know if I
would have been able to sincerely
emotionally get through it without
having my medicine and so every six
months we meet up and you know check on
meds and make sure everything's going
good and so that went really well no
changes to my medicine you know when I
told him I said honestly I have even
felt even different since starting to
lose weight I almost feel like I don't
feel so caged in I don't feel so locked
up that I'm starting to see that little
dim light at the end of the tunnel like
they see something and so it's giving me
such great hope to keep going that I
haven't had that for a long time I
haven't had I haven't had the urge to
really want to work hard for something
and now that I just and I just want to
have that change you know it was funny
today I was telling all the I said you
know I don't know what it is I don't
know why but I have the biggest thing
with pullover sweaters hoodies
and I want to wear one but I have never
been able to find one that really fits
me and fits me comfortably and the
adorably if I can stop yawning you know
I haven't yawned at all and as soon as I
come to visit you guys I start yawning
don't know why must be just a thing that
I do but they go up to you know four or
five six seven eight X but they always
think I'm so short then I feel like half
my gut is hanging out and I hate it
so I told ollie today I was like you
know that's one of my goals that I'm
really working hard towards is losing
enough that I will feel comfortable
wearing a hoodie this year and being
able to wear some sweats and be really
comfortable and I'm just I'm so looking
forward to so many changes and that's
what keeps me going is you guys and my
goals my vision what I see ahead of me
and so that was kind of a funny
conversation cuz he was just like you
know the things that you know I guess I
this is him saying the things that I
guess I don't notice that I you know
that I can do that you can't do but you
would love to do and I'm like yeah just
just little things little little things
means so much to me and it's such an
amazing feeling to know that I'm going
to get to that point now because there's
no turning back there's no you know oh I
think I'm gonna take a break that's just
not part of my story so yeah that was a
pretty interesting conversation because
we just got chit-chatting and you know
it was it was interesting to hear his
side because you know he he has seen me
want to wear the hoodies and I've bought
multiple hoodies from different stores
and none of them like they just don't
fit right and I want one
it's really well and so that's a goal
for me is to get into a hoodie so yeah
that was just that was funny um what
else my son on one note decided to break
my bluetooth headphones yeah I swear as
mothers and fathers if we don't get a
lot for ourselves I'll tell you that
much because everything we have goes to
our children at least mine no he he
loves his headphones but he's seen my
bluetooth ones and I knew he was using
them and it's my fault because I should
have just said no from begin from the
very beginning but I caved in and use
them so tonight I asked him he's been
using them for I don't know two or three
months and I use him at night when I'm
editing my videos and stuff cuz it's
really hard to edit when I've got the
baby asleep and stuff cuz she sleeps
right next to me so I was like hey
Jeremiah go get my headphones cuz I need
to get everything ready for tonight and
he brings them out he's like mom I don't
know how this happened and I've got one
headphone just dangling I'm like you've
got to be seriously kidding me right now
I'm like how did that happen I don't
know they were just sitting on my bed I
was like well sweetie I'm sure it didn't
just happen like just didn't
miraculously just become broke like did
you leave him somewhere where the babies
could have gotten home he's like well I
left him on my bed and I'm like dating
me meaning if it wasn't you then I'm
sure it was the babies so now I'm in the
department of looking for a new set of
bluetooth headphones
I really don't but I found someone
Amazon for $23 I think and they have a
built-in mic which is what I'm wanting I
want the built-in mic because when I'm
editing and doing my voiceovers it's
really nice to have that because
otherwise I have to get my other buds
put them in that has the mic hanging and
so yeah I'm trying to figure out but
yeah I don't know I'm gonna make these
ones work the best I can for as long as
I can before it's just like not able to
use at all I mean I turn them on and I
can I mean they are still usable but I
just don't know how safe it is to really
use them use them because they do have
like the the connection where they pull
apart to make them longer that's exposed
with some wires so and then I went to go
and export video one of the videos and
my memory comes up now I have 230
megabytes of memory that's a lot a lot
of memory and I go to upload my video
yesterday and it says you're gonna have
to go in and you know clear some space
because there's no space and I'm
thinking what did I do
oh wow that's a lot of memory I've used
and so I went through all of my pictures
and I ended up after like the leading
screenshots and just Pinterest things
and I don't even know what else I put
there's so much stuff multiple pictures
of like duplicates and triple kits and I
ended up here racing over 44 No 4400 in
like 50 pictures that still leaves me
with like a thousand something then it
still said that my memory was still
taken up and I'm thinking what else do I
have like I have no games on my phone I
don't play games and I'll have time I
wish I did but I
so I was like what do I have on there
well when I went in I didn't under I
didn't realize that once you erase the
pictures it doesn't mean that it
externally does it so you have to go
back into settings and go down to where
you empty it out like permanently oh my
god
I was like it took me over a half an
hour to figure this out because I just I
never have had to clean up like MySpace
so yeah that was that was quite long
because I had to go through I mean it
took me I'd say at least two hours just
to go through pictures just going
through pictures and I'm like oh my god
and half of these pictures I like I said
I don't even know some of them were like
my kids got ahold of my phone and I had
one video of my kids as knows and I'm
just like I can only imagine what else
they probably do I'm on my phone that I
have yet to find but yeah so anyways I
think that was really all of the
excitement here for dinner tonight we
just we had our leftovers from last
night Subway sandwich and tonight for
dessert I finally get my watermelon all
he went to Costco and got the watermelon
so if I could stop yawning Boop um but
we're gonna go ahead and have watermelon
for dessert and tomorrow I'm gonna start
doing the gallon water drinking I have
to get more water and that's the one
thing the doctor did say with my kidneys
I have to have to have to start getting
more water so I'm gonna do that
starting tomorrow and then starting
tomorrow I'm getting back up and doing
hard workout like hard workout so I'm
probably gonna be fairly sore but that's
okay I would rather be sore in a good
way than sore because I'm not using
muscles that need to be used so anyways
I think that's it I noticed today when I
got out of the car which was a good
feeling I walked from the car into the
doctor's office all the way to check-in
I wasn't out of breath my back didn't
hurt my knee didn't hurt nothing and
then I walked back out to the car which
I noticed on my way back out after the
doctor's appointment that my hip on my
right side was hurting a little bit so I
don't know what that was about
I've never really had hip problems or
like hip pain but it just could be I
don't know maybe the way I was sitting
at the doctor's or something because I
was just really odd and then I went and
then I wanted to go run by Dollar Tree
really quick so I was like oh I don't
know if I could do it because as you
know is my back and a hold up and I get
to get in there and feel like I'm gonna
pass out like I have in the past but I
was like no I'm just gonna go ahead and
try it and see if I get in there and I'm
just not filling it then I just turn
around and walk out not a big deal so I
did and I went in the store and I walked
around and got a few things that I
needed to get and I was able to check
out without like grabbing on to the
register because I feeling like I'm
gonna collapse and I was able to walk
out of the store and get into the car
and still feel like I was owning this
situation like I was just like oh my
gosh I'm starting to get my life back
like it's so exciting and so it was an
amazing feeling though to be able to do
those just those few things but such a
big difference when you were used to not
doing it at all to then being able to
start doing some it's just like yeah I
am loving this I'm loving the change but
anyways so beyond me continuing to
ramble tonight I hope you guys had a
wonderful wonderful Thursday tomorrow I
get my dresser so we're gonna work on
getting this room organized and start
getting in the rooms done it's gonna
feel nice it's gonna really feel nice
once I start getting everything situated
because it's just time it's time to
start working on just things that need
to get done that has been
put aside because of me and my medical
issues so it's gonna be it's gonna be a
good day tomorrow I just hope that you
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